Home truths from the heartbreak kid

When deciding on an article to write I have always been advised: “write what you know”. One uncomfortable thing never fails to come to mind is; Heartbreak.

Heartbreak like many things is a dish best served cold. The ones that leave you in bed, overthinking and an image close to that of Bridget Jones are the ones you learn the most from.

My personal heartbreak experience is that of something that gives you a greater appreciation for every classic scene in a rom-com.  Sweet as a button at the ripe old age of 19 I was not given a rose on the final night of my relationship, poetically the gem that was once mine ended our four year high school romance on the steps of our favourite night club. Ironically, doing so on my ‘girls night’ which he had insisted on crashing, hopefully you’re starting to understand the type of person I was swooning over.

The long uber ride home was one of a ‘come to Jesus’ moment, I sat there with the lyrics of ‘big girls don’t cry’ playing in my head looking out the windows as the first of many tears rolled down my cheek, all the while I assured myself things would be okay.

The following weeks dragged on and every clock seemed to be playing tricks on me with time feeling like it stood still. I looked at my Mum my eyes now unremittingly glassy and asked when it would end? Hold on to your seatbelts because this answer held true. “ This is all temporary, this feeling, it’ll pass; but only with time.” With each passing day I began to feel a little better and while keeping myself busy I began to form my own identity.

I like to believe the person I am now is stronger than I once was, the person that did Bridget proud on the couch crying for the month is also one that no longer feels the need for ‘no man’.  I recall that night calling my best friend and saying through tears “I can’t wait for in a year’s time when we are laughing about this.”

Fast forward one year ahead and I have a relationship and best friend my family approves of, treats me like gold and is an addition rather than a necessity. Exactly what is needed, he may be perfect now or forever you never know in this life but for right now it feels that frog may have just brought me my prince.

It’s easy to read and see others that have been through it and believe they have no idea your pain but if we’re being honest, we are all the heartbreak kid and that’s why they invented girl power.

 

The 21-year crisis

Primary school, a blissful habitation where I was so assured my twenty one year old self would have it all covered. At the ripe old age of twenty one years and seven months I can inform you without hesitation this is not the case.

The world is bigger and scarier than ever and the direction I am heading isn’t necessarily the one I have always dreamed of.

 

What is it that gives us the ability to know something is right?

 

To know something is our purpose?

 

To know if the person we love is actually ‘the one’?

 

I find with each passing month I have more pressure, more questions and fewer answers. At the time many of us are starting to begin a more planned and structured future, mine seems to hold more curve balls than anything else.

 

The return and wrap up

Hey Lovers,

I won’t pretend like it hasn’t been a while but man has life changed.

That thing I was holding out for .. well I got it!

I had the honor of being sent to Melbourne for two weeks and it was honestly amazing, my job is awesome as well as the amazing people I have met along the way.

I’ve loved and lost hard this year, I’ve gained friends, strengthened my relationship and lost some friends too.  Evey year, month and day has its ups and downs and I guess that’s kind of what life is.. just a whole lot of lessons we get from the emotional rollercoaster we can’t seem to get off.

This year has posed many questions for me: do I follow my passion and explore fashion, even though I’ve almost completed my degree? Do I move out or stay at home? Do I focus on my passion of writing? What do I do???

I have alot of questions and not many answers, I’m hoping maybe the answers will lie in 2019.  To each one of you reading this, I hope 2019 gives you even more than you hope for

All my love C x                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

Holding out hope

Dear Lovers,

Have you ever wanted something so bad it consumes you?

I’m sitting here and all I can do is think about this job I interviewed for≥

I am hoping, praying and honestly checking my horoscope in the hopes I get this job. I have become obsessed with it and now is the time I’ll find out whether this dream will become reality.

I honestly can’t even describe this feeling. I’m nervous, excited, scared it’s like having butterflies on steroids!

Fingers crossed hey?

Have an incredible day or night wherever you are in the world,

Ciao lovers x

A Hot Minute

Hey Lovers,

I owe you an apology… I’m so sorry I haven’t been active as much as I usually am on here. Between launching my you tube channel, podcast and my blog I have really felt a bit overwhelmed. But enough of that! It has been a hot minute since we spoke so here are some life updates.

I have got an interview for my dream job next week which if I land I get to go to Melbourne for training!! ANNDDD It’s a job in fashion.. I know *dying*

This job will mean however I will need to say farewell to my manager’s job at my current employment – I do feel like it is well and truly my time to leave though.

In other news, my Europe trip is coming up fast and I’m beyond excited for it. But God it is expensive!

I hope you are all well,

I appreciate each and everyone of you!

Jump on to my youtube to see me in action

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzMIJh7BkDY-N9AoqLoJ5ow

Ciao x

Fri-Yay

Hey lovers,

How exciting it’s fri-yay and the weekend is full of possibilities. Well, by that I mean full of uni work and youtube projects! I am slightly delayed on my first video due to my very average skills at working iMovie but we are almost there! I am currently sitting at uni, drinking my coffee and mentally preparing myself for the full on day ahead! Tomorrow is the start of my full weekend off and boy am I excited! I am going to spend it getting ahead on uni work as well as relaxing!! How are you spending your weekend?

Have an amazing Fri-YAY

Ciao x

The Art of Bullet Journals

Hello Lovers,

The art of bullet journals.. have you heard of it??

This new hip way of keeping your life in order has grown in popularity across the world thanks to one key site.. i’m looking at you ‘Pinterest’!

This trend is something I myself tested for the past 4 months. I thought it looked like fun and may be something I could really get into! But much to my dismay I’m sad to report it just really isn’t. God is it time consuming let me tell you! I can’t help but revert back to my usual diary as I just don’t have the time to sit there and design my spread. Diaries are meant to keep you managing your time well correct? I don’t see how doodling is helping me achieve this.

Alas, the inner trend setter in me wishes I became an advocate for this arty trend but my OCD left me worrying about how perfect the designs were and less about organizing my week.

Below I’ve left some well executed designs, but you be the judge and let me know if this is something you partake in!

Ciao x

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Prada or Nada

Hello Lovers,

It has been a hot minute since we last spoke, I have been neck deep in my handbag obsession. If you’re anything like me.. when you get onto a good thing you go crazy for it! Right now I’ve broken the cardinal rule of fashion lovers and have delve into the market of fake designer bags! I know, I heard you gasp!!

Alas, not all of us are Jaclyn Hill or Kylie Jenner so the price of a Hermes bag is just a little far stretched. I have come across a site called ‘Ioffer’ – You’re welcome! It is a online store with thousands of sellers that create replica bags from brands you love: Channel, Gucci, Prada and so many more!

It does take a expert to spot a good seller so I urge you to read the reviews before purchasing anything however I do have to say for the AUD$25 you’re paying you can’t be too mad.

Below I’ve left some of my current orders – I’ll do a full site review when my order arrives! -Happy shopping my fashion lovers!!

Ciao x

Fake – AUD $25

 

Brand Velvet Satchels Shoulder bag Tote Clutch Handbag

Authentic- AUD$1,935

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